It's ok Dora... Even when it isn't... It Will Be!

 I'm not crying... but I might cry.  I stopped blogging in 2013 because life just became too hectic.  But since finding out about Mahonri, I've been blogging a lot more.  However, today, I decided to read through some of my older blog post.  This one brought tears to my eyes.  I remember this conversation like it was yesterday.  Mom's excitement, TJ's screams.  Every reason for me to fear this adoption written in an old blog post.  Every memory of the heartache that is possibly waiting for me around the corner.  Yet, here I am... still excited... still waiting... For Mahonri.  If you want to read the old post from 2011, click on the link below.

http://tjdora.blogspot.com/2011/12/athena-persephone-mahonri.html

Missing my sweet Queen every moment of every day. Craving her comfort these days more than I ever have before.  But knowing without a shadow of doubt in my mind that she is working her magic on the other side of the veil to make our dreams a reality still.



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